Oh, you know

You know, sometimes I read all of your blogs, and feel like I’m about 10 years old. I have nothing interesting to say, I don’t have many opinions on the current happenings in the world and it’s highly unlikely that I’m about to post a thousand word blog on anything remotely theological. I’m almost embarrassed to blog because it’s all just so…un-intellectual! (see, I KNOW that’s not a word :P) This is who I am though and I know if I keep seeking the true heart of Jesus, I will grow more and more into the daughter He wants me to be, even if that means not being the smartest chook in the shed ;) And that’s okay.
Indeed.

Ok, so…on with the mindless dribblings..:P..

Oh these ups and downs are killing me man! I would like to put it down to PMS (and I am tonight)…but PMS doesn’t go on 30 days of the month!
It’s starting to deeply affect (is that right bub? :P) my life, and J’s life, and my parent’s life, and I guess the lives of everyone around me considering I am chopping and changing all the time.
The doctors appointment went no where in relation to my anxiety and I am now searching for a new doctor as I have realised the one I was seeing is…stupid :P Ok obviously not as she has a doctorate :P, but she is not suited to me (there we go…that’s more polite). I would get into a rant and rave over what happened, but this would make me angry and I have thus far avoided getting overly frustrated by the whole ordeal, so I shall continue with this me thinks ;)
So. I need to find a new doctor. This in itself frustrates me, because I now need to go through the whole process of getting recommendations of someone, getting an appointment, going through alllllll my history with them (I have the history of a 80 year old I think!), with the possibility of them turning out to be horrible and me never seeing them again. But this is ok, because this is what I need to do in order to get help, and to make my life and of those who love me a little bit easier. Yes.
I should get on to that *ahem*

I’m getting lots of shifts at work. Managers’ shifts too, which is lovely because I get paid 25% more.
J has gone full time, which is proving to be a challenge for both of us. We have gotten used to spending a lot of time together. Whether this is a good thing or not; I don’t know. We are not able to spend as much time as we have been though with him working full time, and me getting more shifts. This is tough. And I am typing very structured and to the point sentences and I’m not entirely sure why :P

Okay, so…I have just come to the realisation that my blogs are becoming updates on my life. This wasn’t really what I intended it to be for. I’m not entirely sure WHAT I intended it to be for, but I’m relatively sure this wasn’t it. I wonder if maybe it would be different and I would be more free to write other things if I didn’t know certain people were reading it? Hmm. Something to think about.

Right now, however, I need to head to bed.

There are things going on that I want to write about. I am going to try and do this.

*nods*

Have I told you lately how beautiful my boy is?