The Power of Positive

So you know how I've been having those ups and downs? I've been in a 'down' stage for a little while now, and I'm struggling. Wow, for some reason it just hit me when I typed that I was struggling. Maybe when I actually admit it for the world to see, it becomes more real? Oh I don't know.
I am just in this constant...blergh. I don't feel happy or joyous or at peace or content or just okay. And I struggle with this in itself because I have no reason to be sad or worried or scared or fearful. Life is pretty good. And even if it wasn't, I still have no excuse to feel this way.

So my purpose for this blog is to list my blessings, my good things in life. To remind of all that I have to be happy about. Maybe this will be the kick in the ass I need.

So here we go...

• I baby-sat for my precious girls last night. It is always a joy to spend time with them and their innocense and joyous eyes always hits my heart.
• I got to see Rel for a little bit, and was reminded of how beautiful this woman is and how blessed I am to have her as my mentor. This in itself, was a kick up the ass, as I was reminded of how much I love them all and how I need to be spending more time with them.
• I have the greatest Mum and Dad. I will hear stories of other peoples parents and all those niggly little annoying things about mine disappear. They love and fear the Lord and have taught me to do the same. They have stuck by me through all my painful years and I know they always will. I have fun with them and ENJOY being around them and I know not many people can say that.
• I have a great sister who I am becoming closer to as we grow older. She is the best shopping-buddy ever and I know that as we grow older and experience all life has to offer, we will do it together and always be able to go to each other for anything.
• I have incredible friends. There are a few people who have been in my life for a long time and who will stay in my heart forever. I have friendships a lot of people only dream about, and I far too often take them for granted.
• I have a job that I mostly enjoy doing. I get along with my bosses.
• I have enough money to live off comfortably. Even with the price of petrol these days.
• I am going to have time in the next few weeks to finish my course.
• I have the most amazing boyfriend. He is so much more than I could ever dream of, and God loves me so much that he has blessed me with J to love. And he is dealing with me so well. Mate I wouldn't have been surprised if he'd have turned around and said "who is this chick?" with the way I have been treating him lately. But instead, he tells me he loves me unconditionally. He brings joy to my life, and reminds me constantly of Jesus' love, simply thru his own love. And we are going well. Really well.
• I have a Saviour who died on the cross for my doubts, and my temptations, and my lies, and moments of weakness. I have a Lord who walks before me and follows behind me. My Jesus thinks I'm beautiful and desires my heart. My path is set, and my way set me before me. The greatest man who ever lived is with me all the time, and holds me in His arms when I let Him. He wants to bless me adundantly, and loves me so much that He only has everything good planned for my life.

There is no reason for me to feel like this.