One Week

Well it's been one week today for two significant things in my life :)

1. I've been home without my parents. Which is the first time this has happened as I usually tend to go on holidays with them! But they were off by themselves for the first time, and I'm happy to report that I survived and could have gone longer ;) This is exciting news, which I like rather a lot. Now this is probably going to sound ridiculous and kind of sad to most people, as you would think at 20 I would be more than capable of doing life for a week without my Mum and Dad. But my parents have been my comfort my whole life. Having an anxiety disorder, you need to grab on to something that is familiar and safe, and for me; that was always Mum and Dad. They went to Queensland last year for 3 weeks, which was a tad different as I stayed at Grants and a few friend's houses. That was hard, and I cracked just a few times! I had no concerns coming up to this week at all though. I was going to be looking after the house, the pets, and my own life without my two biggest "comfort people" around, and I had no anxiety over it what so ever. Very cool. What does this tell me? I'm growing up. I am learning to rely less on my parents and I am becoming capable of dealing with life like an adult. Which brings me to number 2...

2. It has been one week that J and I have been together :) And this may be why I have been doing pretty good without Mum and Dad ;)
Sometimes I think about it, and find it very hard to believe it's only been a week. How can I feel so much for this beautiful man already? How can my heart and mind and dreams and wishes have begun moulding so dramatically in only a week? (Okay so we knew this was going to be happening a while before it became official, so these things may have had more time to happen than a week ;)). But at the same time...there is still so much ahead of us, my heart bursts with excitement just thinking about it :) I can't wait to get to know his heart and mind better. I know I will only love him more with every little thing I discover. And I love that I don't want to rush it. I don't want to know and feel everything right now. This falling in love thing? It's a process. A very precious one. And I will cherish that :)